This time focusing on Klaus does the trick, makes the past disappear into the background and seem small and distant like it really is.
"You are enough. I love everything about you. I'm not glad you've been traumatized too," traumatized is a funny word. Like all these open and gushing wounds on hearts and heads. Invisible, but not to the future. Like wind, still strong and cutting. So powerful. "But I'm grateful you're my guide through it all." Nobunaga gently rubs his nose to Klaus before giving him a teeny tiny nervous kiss on the lips. "It's okay." He takes Klaus other hand, only just now realizing they were still holding hands and getting flustered, but it's okay! "He probably was worried about Crichton. Crichton is still kind of shy about sexy things. I can't even say I forgot that. I didn't. But you know me. I want to shoot social taboos and do the opposite. This is the price I must pay."
Kisses Klaus' nose tip, and slowly calms way the fuck down.
"At Sharky's Disco party, he called me his friend and said he loves me. I don't think he even remembered. He was very drunk. You Americans act like it's not a big deal, I think. But for me... it is. If I'm going to soon... acting too fast... it's because I don't know any other way. Life is so short in my time. Men live to about 50. Teyreys time is 3 times that. And besides... if it wasn't for Crichton, I wouldn't have met you. And I wouldn't have cared about your kind of music, only what I like. And I wouldn't have seen Muppets to understand the Lion King and velocipastor references. Or -- I wouldn't have tried so hard with Teyrey. She came the night Crichton died right before you and I went on our date."
He gently squeezes the hands, then moves off one hand to superfocus both hands on one, gently stroking and massaging it. "Crichton told me about astronauts, and space, and aliens, first day I was here. And I knew I wanted to explore all of that. And I remember how scary the first day is, and getting drunk with Crichton and talking about Halloween and space made it okay. So I wanted to do that for Teyrey."
Gently noms a knuckle! "He hugged me too, that bastard. I didn't know whether to stab him or throw him, but he's my friend I promised to protect, so I just froze. I will get stronger though, and surprise you both." Deep breath.
"I still don't deserve you. Or any of this," gentle oh so gentle strokes between Klaus' fingers, genuinely trying not to cry and failing a little. "I don't want to fuck up," heartbreakingly quiet whisper.
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"You are enough. I love everything about you. I'm not glad you've been traumatized too," traumatized is a funny word. Like all these open and gushing wounds on hearts and heads. Invisible, but not to the future. Like wind, still strong and cutting. So powerful. "But I'm grateful you're my guide through it all." Nobunaga gently rubs his nose to Klaus before giving him a teeny tiny nervous kiss on the lips. "It's okay." He takes Klaus other hand, only just now realizing they were still holding hands and getting flustered, but it's okay! "He probably was worried about Crichton. Crichton is still kind of shy about sexy things. I can't even say I forgot that. I didn't. But you know me. I want to shoot social taboos and do the opposite. This is the price I must pay."
Kisses Klaus' nose tip, and slowly calms way the fuck down.
"At Sharky's Disco party, he called me his friend and said he loves me. I don't think he even remembered. He was very drunk. You Americans act like it's not a big deal, I think. But for me... it is. If I'm going to soon... acting too fast... it's because I don't know any other way. Life is so short in my time. Men live to about 50. Teyreys time is 3 times that. And besides... if it wasn't for Crichton, I wouldn't have met you. And I wouldn't have cared about your kind of music, only what I like. And I wouldn't have seen Muppets to understand the Lion King and velocipastor references. Or -- I wouldn't have tried so hard with Teyrey. She came the night Crichton died right before you and I went on our date."
He gently squeezes the hands, then moves off one hand to superfocus both hands on one, gently stroking and massaging it. "Crichton told me about astronauts, and space, and aliens, first day I was here. And I knew I wanted to explore all of that. And I remember how scary the first day is, and getting drunk with Crichton and talking about Halloween and space made it okay. So I wanted to do that for Teyrey."
Gently noms a knuckle! "He hugged me too, that bastard. I didn't know whether to stab him or throw him, but he's my friend I promised to protect, so I just froze. I will get stronger though, and surprise you both." Deep breath.
"I still don't deserve you. Or any of this," gentle oh so gentle strokes between Klaus' fingers, genuinely trying not to cry and failing a little. "I don't want to fuck up," heartbreakingly quiet whisper.