"I do not presume to know what their reasons were. I have my theories," he says but doesn't elaborate.
Sorries don't feel like anywhere near enough from anyone.
"Because I have lived in Faerghus, I am used to people knowing this about the people of Duscur when they see me. Many regard me with suspicion, and I cannot blame them because they do not know better. It is strange to live somewhere where that is not the case."
Even now, he notices that he is carefully constructing his response to be as non-confrontational towards Faerghans as possible. Dedue knows, somewhere deep inside of him, there is an immense disgust towards the code of Faerghan chivalry that would justify such cruel brutality while praising Faerghus as civilized, honorable, just. To him, there is nothing beautiful about a land that only loves war. But he has lived a life where any hint of lack of sympathy for Faerghan grief over the king's death would in itself be a sign of justifying treason. And old habits die hard.
Nobunaga's reassurances do not comfort him. Maybe there would have been a time when such words might have helped. As Dimitri's vassal, he channeled everything he did into the hopes that, once Dimitri took the throne, the violence would end and Duscur could rebuild. But here, he will never see that happen. And back in his timeline, Dimitri is no longer a crown prince but a fugitive. It all feels very hopeless.
He thinks about the idea that one person could instantly change everything. He once believed it, but now it feels too nice, too storybook. And far too much pressure to put on one person alone. He's seen firsthand how that sort of pressure can tear someone apart from the inside.
And he thinks of the rioters from Duscur that the Blue Lions once helped to flee. Did their fight mean nothing, because no leader will come to save them? Or will they choose their battles and fight another day? Does the world change because of the strong leaders that make big decisions? Or because of the smaller people that keep on persisting?
"Perhaps. I do think it takes time. I have not fully given up hope. But hope is difficult."
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Sorries don't feel like anywhere near enough from anyone.
"Because I have lived in Faerghus, I am used to people knowing this about the people of Duscur when they see me. Many regard me with suspicion, and I cannot blame them because they do not know better. It is strange to live somewhere where that is not the case."
Even now, he notices that he is carefully constructing his response to be as non-confrontational towards Faerghans as possible. Dedue knows, somewhere deep inside of him, there is an immense disgust towards the code of Faerghan chivalry that would justify such cruel brutality while praising Faerghus as civilized, honorable, just. To him, there is nothing beautiful about a land that only loves war. But he has lived a life where any hint of lack of sympathy for Faerghan grief over the king's death would in itself be a sign of justifying treason. And old habits die hard.
Nobunaga's reassurances do not comfort him. Maybe there would have been a time when such words might have helped. As Dimitri's vassal, he channeled everything he did into the hopes that, once Dimitri took the throne, the violence would end and Duscur could rebuild. But here, he will never see that happen. And back in his timeline, Dimitri is no longer a crown prince but a fugitive. It all feels very hopeless.
He thinks about the idea that one person could instantly change everything. He once believed it, but now it feels too nice, too storybook. And far too much pressure to put on one person alone. He's seen firsthand how that sort of pressure can tear someone apart from the inside.
And he thinks of the rioters from Duscur that the Blue Lions once helped to flee. Did their fight mean nothing, because no leader will come to save them? Or will they choose their battles and fight another day? Does the world change because of the strong leaders that make big decisions? Or because of the smaller people that keep on persisting?
"Perhaps. I do think it takes time. I have not fully given up hope. But hope is difficult."