He pauses to gather his words before speaking, getting himself in order.

"I don't think I'm going to be able to get myself to leave the ship for the next excursion. I had a hard enough time for this one, and took a cricket bat to my bruised psyche, so to speak. While, consciously, I realize I have support...in the moment, I did not have my support, and that hurt me. And what I want isn't an apology, it's to feel secure again. But that's not going to just happen, not after how things fell out."