"That's-- gotta suck." He means that. He's been drugged before. He hates that feeling. He hates feeling disconnected from himself, not in control, even if the medication's supposed to have the opposite effect.

"... I might talk to him." He needs help. He knows he does. But-- it is embarrassing. And it twists his gut, the thought of anybody ever asking him what caused it all. That's a whole hell of a lot of nightmares he doesn't want to get into.

"It's not easy for me to do that though. Uh, think what I got'll help me for a bit."