His head tips back against the wall again as a fresh wave of that stupid, godawful feeling crawls its way up his throat, eyes up as more of those stupid, godawful tears slide down to his jaw to drip into the collar of his jacket.
"It's just stupid," he repeats. "I can't even claim that it's complicated because it's not. It's just another part of this cycle that I've been trapped in since the day I left home." He stops, swallows, takes a steadying breath. "Waynes as a people are really bad at forming strong attachments to other people. We're beholden to the planet itself. We're not taught how things are supposed to feel either so when it started happening to me, it- I was blindsided. I barely learned how to be a functioning person before I stepped into the shit, and then had to deal with everything all at the same time." He's never learned emotional regulation or a proper coping mechanism in his life.
"Have you ever been so certain of something that it scared you?"
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"It's just stupid," he repeats. "I can't even claim that it's complicated because it's not. It's just another part of this cycle that I've been trapped in since the day I left home." He stops, swallows, takes a steadying breath. "Waynes as a people are really bad at forming strong attachments to other people. We're beholden to the planet itself. We're not taught how things are supposed to feel either so when it started happening to me, it- I was blindsided. I barely learned how to be a functioning person before I stepped into the shit, and then had to deal with everything all at the same time." He's never learned emotional regulation or a proper coping mechanism in his life.
"Have you ever been so certain of something that it scared you?"