"Oh. That kind of cheat."

But even so, it seems wrong to do that to someone else.

"Fumbling through is exactly how it feels, though. Awkward and strange and like I'm not sure where I'm supposed to step, how I'm supposed to act. It..."

Taking a breath, she sets her cup on the table.

"No, if I keep going down that path, I'll be horribly selfish and dump a confusing mess in your lap."