"Who's cabin did you run right to after, huh?? Yeah, I instigated it. I was out of my damn mind and I thought I deserved to die for what I did to you. I felt like a rabid dog who needed putting down. Harvey was holding my damn finger off the trigger or I'd have done us both the favor myself. You think you were the only one hurting?" He feels sick admitting to this, but Siffleur already ratted his ass out so it's probably nothing Arthur didn't already know.

"I was never going to be better than John to you. He got all the second chances. Apparently, including this one."