"I'm sick of laughing to cover for it all... when I'm not drugging myself up enough to numb the pain." Because he's been operating that way for, well, years.

"Yeah, I can see it. I'm glad you're honest enough to admit it. Look, there's probably nothing you can say or think about me that I haven't already told myself. But... talk to me, man. We're both drowning in it right now. You haven't been here that long, have you?"