(she does feel the love within this kiss and truly, it does frighten her a bit. because it's the ability she feels she can't really return. jinx, as the zaunites, call her "a loose cannon" and she wonders if that nickname reached up to the top-siders by now. but not only she is that but she is also "a problem" according to sevika. if one tend to loom around her for too much longer, disaster will strike. no matter how careful, how articulate she tries to be with every movement, the results will always end the same way.
so love is something, she believes, she can't reciprocate regardless if she feels the same way. because death follows her, it clings to her -- her love ones or anyone she holds dear will die horrifically whether on purpose or on accident. so the love she feels in their kiss does scare her but... for now, she'll let it slide and won't run. despite her every bone of her body wanting to. if anything, she just tightens her hold on him more -- hoping he won't break or crumble like her world tends to do. )
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so love is something, she believes, she can't reciprocate regardless if she feels the same way. because death follows her, it clings to her -- her love ones or anyone she holds dear will die horrifically whether on purpose or on accident. so the love she feels in their kiss does scare her but... for now, she'll let it slide and won't run. despite her every bone of her body wanting to. if anything, she just tightens her hold on him more -- hoping he won't break or crumble like her world tends to do. )