★ (CATCH ALL) baby, go ahead, i'll be your hatred and your pain. this is killing us all。

[opheliac]

Who: jinx & YOU
When: all throughout july
Where: all throughout the boat
What: giving this catch all way a try. things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private. all jinx's top-levels, her phone texting, and her one-on-one will permanently go here for the month.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log.

❝i'm a beautiful disaster;a reckoning❞

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WEEK 1 (07/03 - 07/09)
█ NATSUNO ➜ 07.04 ➜ TEXT/PRIVATE.
█ VENTI ➜ 07.06 ➜ TEXT/ACTION.
█ EKKO ➜ 07.06 ➜ TEXT/ACTION.
█ JINX ➜ 07.09 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

WEEK 2 (07/10 - 07/16)
█ EKKO ➜ 07.11 ➜ ACTION.
█ MAXMILEN + VENTI ➜ 07.13 ➜ TEXT/ACTION (CW: DRUG/DRUG USE)

WEEK 3 (07/17 - 07/23)
█ JINX ➜ 07.20 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

WEEK 4 (07/24 - 07/30)
█ EKKO ➜ 07.29➜ ACTION

(07/31)
█ JINX ➜ 07.31 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

coding credit to thisismanx

Comments

[secondtick]

I'll take what I can get.

(He laughed a little tapping her head with his own lightly, a small sign that they were still good even if she wasn't able to those words just yet. At least she didn't say that she hated him, and that was enough for now.)

As long as you know that what I said is real, and I'm real.

[opheliac]

It's what I like about you, Little Man. You have yet to lie to me. — As far as I know, anyway.

(she shut her eyes and letting herself just enjoy this moment with him. a moment she didn't think she needed until now. it's rather annoying expressing herself this way and jinx can only hope this thing won't start traveling all over the boat. speaking of:)

— Will it be alright with you if we spend the rest of the night together? Noooot really in the mood to annoy everyone else on boat 'till it gets really late.

[secondtick]

Haven't had a reason to, and I never want there to be one.

(He knew that she'd be annoyed with it, but at the very least he was enjoying just how open she was being even if he'd never be allowed to acknowledge or bring any of this up again in the future.)

I've got time to keep, and don't think anyone will be looking for me.

[opheliac]

Hm. Surprised you haven't gotten a swarm of new buddies at your side. — Not enjoyin' our new friendly locals?

(she is trying to make the light of the situation or at least gear this conversation to something else that isn't... lovey-dovey where she spill her guts out again. jinx feels she's done enough of that tonight.)

[secondtick]

Seems like you're the one popular one this time, with all the friends and followers you have.

(Honestly, if he went overboard, other than Jinx he didn't think anyone else would notice. Maybe Clark. He was happy for her about it though, having more people that she could connect to, it was reassuring.)

[opheliac]

Pft, please. A lotta of 'em are scared of me. Which I'm completely fine with.

(she shuts her eyes and tries to rest -- taking in the sounds of the ocean.)

I wanna be feared and to show everyone I'm not some weak clumsy lil' girl that needs help.

[secondtick]

Vi's probably the only one that would still think that. But she'll think that until you manage to knock it into her thick head.

(Not to hard when she still blocks with her face. It was strange, the sound of the water and yet it was somehow soothing.)

[opheliac]

Don't see that happenin'. She's the one with the fat hands between the three of us. I can totally shoot her though.

Maybe if we get her a new brain we can dump the old one. And who knows!! The new brain will make her forget about that stupid Enforcer, too!

(such a gruesome conversation and she speaks so lightly over it, too. but when it really boils down to it, she would never be able to really harm vi that badly. perhaps a nick or two but not to the point of no return. as much as she can't stand her, she still loves her.)

[secondtick]

Still can't believe she teamed up with a topsider after everything that's happened. But she promised she wanted to help, and that she could get someone to listen.

(From what Ekko had seen and heard since, that was a lie just like every other that they told.)

I think you'd be better off just scaring off the enforcer. Probably wouldn't take much.

[opheliac]

She got googley-eyed, plain and simple. Or the Enforcer used her lil' witchy voodoo crap on her. I'm thinkin' the latter.

(because out of all of them, vi was the one that truly hated the topsiders and the enforcers the most. so it would only make sense that caitlyn did... something to change that line of thinking.)

Right! — Like the city up above would listen to what us "low-lives" got to say. We've just gunk underneath their shoes and there's nothin' anyone can do that's gonna change their opinion about us.

[secondtick]

Voodoo crap? Do you think she has some kind of magic and brainwashed Vi? No way.

(Nothing would be that strong to get through Vi's stubbornness.)

Or if they do take notice, it's just to brand you a threat to their way of life. An instigator and troublemaker, public enemy number 1.

[opheliac]

Super positive. Aaaaand I'm lookin' forward to be the center of attention for the Pilites. It'll be a lotta fun! — Say, wanna ditch the golf ball and hang out at my secret hideout? Well... not a secret but it's one to you since you haven't been to it yet.

[secondtick]

Not as much fun as you think, they're not the brightest or the best. So there's no challenge there.

(At the mention of a secret hideout he arches a brow though.)

So you were holding out, sure where have you got the fun toys stashed.

[opheliac]

Great! (a brief pause as she sits up straight but then smiles bashfully.) — I'm a lil', uh, weak...though? So um... maybe we can fly there? Or... if you wanna carry me there.

(how embarrassing to admit she is just so sore and worn out that she needs assistance. but it can't really be helped nor she can't hide the fact of her current state.)

[secondtick]

Yeah, I've got you.

(With a whistle the board is back and Ekko steps out, turning and putting an arm around her waist, waiting to see if she wanted to be carried bridal style or if it was going to be a piggyback ride.)

[opheliac]

('i'm going to hate myself later for this. i'm going to hate myself later for this.' she says this over and over in her head as she carefully makes her way to his board. and how she is positioned, she is wanting to be carried bridal style instead of piggyback. to her, it just seems easier then trying to wrap all around him.

but also because... she just wants to be carried that way. not that she will ever tell him -- jinx will make sure her mouth stay completely shut over this. and she can only hope this won't go to his head, either.)

[secondtick]

(Scooping an arm under her legs, he picks her up without much trouble at all. It was still surprising how light she was, and how much it belied the power that she had packed inside.)

Hold on tight.

(He kept her close as the board curved around, first going up to get a good view of the lights twinkling below on the deck, and then turning and sliding downward as the wind rushed through their hair.)

[opheliac]

(as instructed, she is holding on tight and jinx also keeps her face buried the best way she can to hide the obvious blush that's flaring over her pale complexion )

Uh, we're headin' to the theatre. That's where my hideout is.

[secondtick]

I heard ya. Just wanted one last moment of fresh air.

(The dive took them just over the pool, pulling up just as the board skirted the edge of the water, leaving a small sparkle of droplets behind them. He slows a little more as they maneuver through the corridor, more for the awkwardness of how he was carrying her than caution.)

So why the theater?

[opheliac]

Honestly? It's pretty quiet there and not a lotta people go there, either. You'd think with all the ghosts and all, there would put on a performance at the theatre but... it never happens. So I figured it's the best place for me to just get my mind together when it gets...uh. Y'know.

(unstable. the theatre became a mental safe space for her whenever the voices and the dead tickle around her neck. a place for her to breathe and try to ground herself. because the fact that nothing ever happens in the theatre is why she is able to recover from her episodes quickly. everything always looks the same and nothing changes. so it helps her distinguish what's real and what isn't.

but now that she shared this little information about that (thanks water), he now knows the first place to look for her if she ever runs off or gets into those mental breakdrowns.)

[secondtick]

Guess they're too busy in the other one dragging people up for karaoke.

(Ekko remembered being pulled into the lounge and up to the stage when he'd first arrived. But now that they were talking about it, he hadn't really heard of anything involving the theater which seemed like a waste of good space. Pleanty of room to fly around, lots of cables and tech to mess with. Maybe Jinx had the right idea.)

Any surprises I should watch out for? Wires or sensors for an explosive entrance.

[opheliac]

Nope, not this time! Not since I finished building. But I should add a lil' more to it.

(building what, he may ask? well whenever the two of them fly inside the theatre, the ground level itself looks the same. the seats are normal, the stage, and the balcony seats. everything doesn't seem out of the ordinary until one decides to look up. and up in the rafters, there seems to be a handmade deck spread along each beam.)

( there is a rope (she snatched from the theatre's rope to close the curtain) that dangles from the top to the bottom of the floor -- an indication that there's one way of getting up there. another would be parktouring along the balcony seatings if one has the agility. and lastly, by having to go the long way -- go back stage, find the stairs to be up in the lights and then leaping over if one dares to do so without breaking a bone or dying.)

(and on the deck, there lies those trusty little weapons she adores so much, pow-pow and fishbones. but it's not just them, there's a plushie of a shark prop up with them, two bed mattresses with pillows and blankets (don't ask how she managed to get it up there. by willpower, that's what!), a chest that's filled with random things -- snacks, drinks, random scrap metal, parts, and a self-made doll of some...wierd thing. at the tail end of the deck, there's a device he will painfully recognize that is her gramphone from home when they all use to hang out as kids to listen to.

another thing she has if ekko wishes to explore, back stage is her "workshop". which simply is just a table filled with all sorts of random pieces of the ship (on the floor next to it, is a box where all of her toy monkey cymbals are resting) and a spinning chair. also, shimmer is hidden somewhere in this area. will he ever find it? maaaaayybe, maaaayybe not. but it's definitely not within visual sights.)

[secondtick]

(Ekko hovered in the middle of the room for a minute, glancing around. It was pretty open, easy to see anyone coming, and then went up to the rafters. Which oddly weren't too unlike certain areas in Zaun. Certainly, a good place to hide things.

Setting Jinx down, he stepped off and powered off the board for a bit. Seemed like she'd made herself pretty at home here compared to the cabin.)

So this is where you were hiding?

[opheliac]

(once she is set down, jinx slowly makes her way to one of the mattress to sit at first but then deciding at the last minute to lie down. and it isn't until she does this, she realizes how much her body was craving to rest. and luckily, the mattress she is currently on is big enough for two if he ever chooses to rest along with her.

with her hands folding behind her head, she sways her foot from side to side.)

Yyyyep! This was where I was stayin' up 'till recently. Whaddya think? Not too bad, huh?

(jinx looks over to him with a peppy grin.)

Here, you don't hafta hear that stupid morning announcement which was why I stayed here in the first place. (the grin flattens a bit, sadly and her tone follows low, too.) — But then... my nightmares got worse and I was afraid I would fall off this one day. I've already done that once when the ship got attacked. Fell riiiight into the audience and I think I was unconscious for several hours.

(and no one came searching for her or knew she was in here either with a bloody head wound. thinking back on it, it was a miracle she even woke up and she lived through that.)

[secondtick]

(He had to hand it to her, it wasn't bad. Other than having a doozy of a first step if you weren't careful getting up in the morning. But for the privacy and the little extra room it was certainly worth it. Walking over he plopped down next to her, leaning back and little and looking down. Then she happened to say exactly what he was thinking in a different way.)

You could put a net, just to be safe, it could be a giant hammock if you fell as well. But the space and the lack of screaming does seem like an upgrade.

Seems like they would have missed you at the muster station.