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Izzy Hands ([personal profile] ninetoes) wrote in [community profile] come_sailaway 2022-08-24 12:29 pm (UTC)

People have started using the word friend around Izzy far too much recently. Said it genuinely. Meant it. First Lucius, now Darcy, it is becoming a pattern.

Izzy has one friend. And recently he isn't sure if he even has that, anymore.

Now, somehow, he has two more, said aloud, confirmed. No guess work, no wondering, they're friends. Why someone would ever want to be his friend he doesn't know, but it doesn't feel... bad. Maybe it's because he's useful. He's teaching Darcy. For Lucius he is the last testament of home that isn't their respective captain. It's familiar, he had said. It's easy.

Izzy has to agree with him. It is easy, weirdly so. This, here with Darcy, despite all the pain and difficulty wrenching his words out, his truth, his story, the actual existing next to each other is so, so natural.

To be safety for another person when he, himself, has nothing of the sort (so he thinks), feels absurd. But that has very often been his lot in life (so he thinks). His perspective is tainted. His narration terribly unreliable.

"You'd-" whuff, this is a lot. He's intense. He's unimaginative. He's a 'real bummer'.

"You, you want that?"

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