Family tends to bring out those sort of feelings, it's unavoidable for some. It shows that you still have an attachment.

( a sister, pollux has many siblings too. she's never had this issue of disliking them for she's always loved them no matter what, and has even put herself in danger for them. she can't look at this from her lens, but one that she's seen when observing others. )

But the real question is... if you were to see her again, what would you do?

( she goes back and forth between missing her, hating her, loving her... which one of those feelings would win out in the end? )