If I wasn't, [ He turns to gesture at the hallucination of Jacob as if she'll be able to see him, only to realize he's not there. Of couse. Typical. He glares at where he'd been not a half hour before.] Asshole.

If I wasn't hallucinating him half the time maybe. It's not like he's gone. He's just, [ Pointing to his own head.] in here. For fucking ever. I can't get away from him even in death.