[ Mizuki ends up just rubbing his face into Ebalon's chest, perhaps to nuzzle him, or perhaps to shake his head "no". Perhaps even both. But it's the only response Ebalon gets as Mizuki finds a hard time to find his voice. His mouth opens and closes like a real fish for a moment, little shaky breaths being the only thing to come out. It's funny, he's had this conversation before that he needs to just accept that death comes cheap here. He's had the conversation that he needs to come to terms that he needs to not get so torn up about it, else it might drive him crazy. He thought he was getting better about it, what with Venti's death over a month ago, but… it's different to physically feel it, isn't it? To feel that pain, and furthermore, to feel his soul being split apart yet again.
To put it simply, it was overwhelming. But more than that, at the end of it, the worst part wasn't the pain, or the soul splitting, or even knowing something had happened to Ebalon, but rather the fact that he wasn't there to help. Wasn't there to protect Ebalon. Wasn't there to stop all that pain. And then the worst thing just got even worse when Ebalon wasn't back the next day. He doesn't want Ebalon to know how sick he felt thinking that he wouldn't come back, or thinking that his "forever" had been cut far too short. He's here now, he doesn't have to think about that. ]
You died. [ His voice cracks. ] Don't you dare say you're alright, that's bullshit. [ Even if they weren't sharing emotions, even Mizuki could tell that much. ] …I was so scared I wasn't ever going to see you again.
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To put it simply, it was overwhelming. But more than that, at the end of it, the worst part wasn't the pain, or the soul splitting, or even knowing something had happened to Ebalon, but rather the fact that he wasn't there to help. Wasn't there to protect Ebalon. Wasn't there to stop all that pain. And then the worst thing just got even worse when Ebalon wasn't back the next day. He doesn't want Ebalon to know how sick he felt thinking that he wouldn't come back, or thinking that his "forever" had been cut far too short. He's here now, he doesn't have to think about that. ]
You died. [ His voice cracks. ] Don't you dare say you're alright, that's bullshit. [ Even if they weren't sharing emotions, even Mizuki could tell that much. ] …I was so scared I wasn't ever going to see you again.