There are any number of things one might do for the sake of one’s own sanity in such a situation. Reckless things, even.

[Pal pauses and sips his tea again, but now he looks thoughtful, not antagonistic.]

But here’s what I don’t understand. You’ve never struck me as reckless, Yuuki, not even in moments of unbelievable stress. And if such events really were repeating themselves on this ship, I don’t see how temporarily killing yourself would do anything to change the situation.