The only objective fact is that I made a choice, and it was taken away from me.
[He can't even decide his own fate, and Jade wants to argue about semantics? Fuck this, he's not playing.]
It wasn't even the first time. The shiki turned my best friend, and then sent him to kill me for snooping around. And you know what? I was fine with that, because it was either him or me. [If Tohru hadn't gone through with it, they would've hurt his still-living family and send someone else after Natsuno anyway.] I made peace with dying. Instead I turned into one of them, and after everything I've done to not be one a part of me still ended up in this fucking place -
[Natsuno cuts himself off. He didn't mean to let the dam break, but he's just so angry. Even now, he made another choice only to get fucked over by the captain's caprices and hurt everyone else in the process.]
So yeah, of course it would've been easier if no one here cared about me. But what's the point of even asking that? [He's not deluding himself. He knows you can't help but form bonds with others, especially in these situations.] People care, and I care about them.
suicide cw for this entire thread tbh
[He can't even decide his own fate, and Jade wants to argue about semantics? Fuck this, he's not playing.]
It wasn't even the first time. The shiki turned my best friend, and then sent him to kill me for snooping around. And you know what? I was fine with that, because it was either him or me. [If Tohru hadn't gone through with it, they would've hurt his still-living family and send someone else after Natsuno anyway.] I made peace with dying. Instead I turned into one of them, and after everything I've done to not be one a part of me still ended up in this fucking place -
[Natsuno cuts himself off. He didn't mean to let the dam break, but he's just so angry. Even now, he made another choice only to get fucked over by the captain's caprices and hurt everyone else in the process.]
So yeah, of course it would've been easier if no one here cared about me. But what's the point of even asking that? [He's not deluding himself. He knows you can't help but form bonds with others, especially in these situations.] People care, and I care about them.