My fuck rations are depleted [October catch-all]

[neverleave]

Who: Natsuno and you
What: Monthly catch-all
When: October
Where: All around
Warnings: Discussion of murder, violence and suicide, will add as needed

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[neverleave]

Oh, you know.

[Natsuno turns to look at the sky again, squinting at the fake sun. He's so tired but sleep won't be coming any time soon.]

Fucked up and died. People got angry. Usual ship bullshit.

[be_seeing_you]

What part troubles you most?

[As someone who also recently died, he can't pretend to be shocked about that part.]

[neverleave]

Upsetting people, obviously. Dying's old news.

[Natsuno died twice before arriving on the Serena Eterna. It was never death that upset it him, it was the waking up and getting slapped with the consequences.

Even now, his decision to take better care of himself is for his friends' sake. He never wants to upset them like this again, he should be worthy of how much they care about him.]

Revival takes three days now, by the way.

[So you know. Don't fuck up and die.]

[be_seeing_you]

To you, it may be. I would caution you to take it more seriously if you don't wish to upset your friends.

[Says the man who died last month on a raft.]

I wasn't aware. Since when has it been that way?

[neverleave]

[You'd think that after getting yelled at and slapped to Monday and back, this kind of advice from a relative stranger would be met with venom.

He doesn't have the energy for venom. At best he can do dry sarcasm that's not even really aimed at Smith.]

If I do anything like that again they'll kill me so bad I'd wish I never came back.

Anyway, it was on October first. And the Moon Freak took three days to come back as well so it's not just me.

[be_seeing_you]

Do anything like what? And, I'm afraid I don't know who you're referring to.

[In fact, that statement could apply to the "They" as much as the "Moon Freak"]

[neverleave]

I exploded.

[Should admit that so freely, and in this flat tone? Eh, who cares. Caring sucks. He wouldn't be feeling like this if he hadn't cared.]

The Moon Freak exploded too, apparently. Ebalon. White hair, does magic, smiles like a serial killer.

[be_seeing_you]

You what? H-how?

Yes, I know who Ebalon is. Him too? How on earth...?

[neverleave]

How? I took a bomb and detonated it. Boom.

[This deadpan statement is accompanied by the laziest hand gesture.]

Don't know how Ebalon did it though. Probably magic bullshit. Maybe he tried to fit the moon in his cabin.

[be_seeing_you]

Did you detonate it on purpose?

[neverleave]

Yeah.

[He closes his eyes. Admitting this to a relative stranger is surprisingly painless.]

My turn to ask a question. Which is worse: one moment of pain or months of looking over your shoulder?

[be_seeing_you]

If I answer, will you tell me who you're looking over your shoulder for?

[neverleave]

[He considers. Jinx said she didn't mind if he told what happened, but...]

If you leave them alone. We're square now and I'm not starting anything.

[be_seeing_you]

Very well. It's hardly my place to step in if you consider the matter resolved.

I suspect I share your same opinion. I would take the moment of pain over the extended dread.

[neverleave]

Exactly. A moment of pain and couple hours of unconsciousness are better than months of being threatened and stalked.

Anyway, it was Jinx. But like I said, that's over and done with.

[be_seeing_you]

Jinx? I know she has her penchant for explosives, but why would she be stalking you? And why wouldn't she have blown you up herself instead of having you do it? That seems unlike her.