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You must fix your heart
CHARACTERS: Darcy and probably someone
DATE: it's (already) May
LOCATION: Various
SITUATION: Depressed teenager has a normal time
WARNINGS: None yet!
In this moment, after Fio’s hugged Sparkles and everyone seems to be wrapping up the arguments and the… frankly inexplicable tea table (??? who does that?) Darcy is reminded of how badly she had wanted a threat to be able to punch. Sparkles, another undeserved recipient of begrudging mercy, was not that. All she’s got is adrenaline and pain and potentially some more bruised relationships than she had at the start of the day. So y’know. Tuesday.
She’s already back at her room by the time Skulduggery messages, at her limit of human contact before she disembowels someone, and by the time he arrives she’s doing what she was doing when he texted; which is to say, biting into her arm through her hoodie sleeve to muffle her screaming.
Darcy had been expecting some sort of sense of real triumph when all was said and done. But as it always goes, there's no ticker-tape parade when it's over. The Captain's back, Sparkles is somewhere, her friends are safe, she's… fine. The ship will just go back to business as usual. And she will too, eventually; back to the endless loop of training and more training and different training and finding ways to pass the time in between waiting for… something. What is she even waiting for, now? The excursions aren’t lethal anymore, the most recent threat to the ship has been dealt with, and they still can’t leave and... She’ll get back to it, honestly, it’ll all go back to the way things were, into the comforting rhythm of routine. She just… needs a minute.
Darcy passes out for about a day.
When she drags herself back to consciousness through drool and the pattern of pillow crease pressed into her face, she suddenly remembers her discussion with Ruby; and if she’s lying around feeling bad for herself, she has the time to do it to benefit someone else, so Ruby gets a text that is valiantly attempting to not seem frantic.
Honestly, Darcy kind of worries she’s dreaming when she spots them for the first time. Just like December: the bright gleam of industrial steel, the smell of a kitchen freshly cleaned, a good array of knives. Not amazingly well-stocked, she’ll have to hope the Easter-Erda delivers her some of ingredients or equipment she notices are lacking (seriously, what sort of kitchen doesn’t have a rice cooker or orange oil), but literally anything is better than nothing, and it irritates her to no end that she’s going to have to thank the Captain for it.
So find her;
A) Making a batch of bread-rolls to test out the oven with: in the process of kneading, proofing, or waiting for them to finish baking.
B) Throwing together lunch for herself: cutting up vegetables, kneading pasta dough, reading a book of Christina Rosetti’s poetry while waiting for pasta to finish cooking, whisking a sauce together, and eating by herself on the floor in the corner.
C) Making a bigger meal at dinner to share: peeling potatoes, cooking off onions and garlic, browning meat, doing stretches on the floor while waiting for the food to finish cooking in the oven.
D) Or most commonly between meals: cleaning. Sharpening and washing the knives, wiping down the benchtops, doing the dishes, mopping the floors while levitating a few inches above it. It’s the first taste of real sanity she’s been able to find in… definitely since the labyrinth, probably since she arrived. Do not step on her clean floors or risk getting the mop shoved somewhere delicate.
She imagines that a caged bird being freed feels the same way as she does setting up the treadmill. Darcy is a well-tuned machine that needs to be in motion, which is sufficient motivation to ignore the risk of getting cornered by someone in the gym again (thanks for that anxiety, Clarke,) and actually go to train during the day. Like some sort of animal.
Between the treadmill, deadlifts, one-armed push-ups, rowing machine, and the intensity with which she’s hitting the punching bag, an observer might come to the conclusion that she’s either trying to push past her limits, or run herself ragged. Either way, stay out of her way and off the machine she’s about to use or risk getting scowled at.
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DATE: it's (already) May
LOCATION: Various
SITUATION: Depressed teenager has a normal time
WARNINGS: None yet!
Let our bodies lay, mark our hearts with shame (Skulduggery)
In this moment, after Fio’s hugged Sparkles and everyone seems to be wrapping up the arguments and the… frankly inexplicable tea table (??? who does that?) Darcy is reminded of how badly she had wanted a threat to be able to punch. Sparkles, another undeserved recipient of begrudging mercy, was not that. All she’s got is adrenaline and pain and potentially some more bruised relationships than she had at the start of the day. So y’know. Tuesday.
She’s already back at her room by the time Skulduggery messages, at her limit of human contact before she disembowels someone, and by the time he arrives she’s doing what she was doing when he texted; which is to say, biting into her arm through her hoodie sleeve to muffle her screaming.
Let our blood in vain, you find God in pain (Meta + Ruby)
Darcy had been expecting some sort of sense of real triumph when all was said and done. But as it always goes, there's no ticker-tape parade when it's over. The Captain's back, Sparkles is somewhere, her friends are safe, she's… fine. The ship will just go back to business as usual. And she will too, eventually; back to the endless loop of training and more training and different training and finding ways to pass the time in between waiting for… something. What is she even waiting for, now? The excursions aren’t lethal anymore, the most recent threat to the ship has been dealt with, and they still can’t leave and... She’ll get back to it, honestly, it’ll all go back to the way things were, into the comforting rhythm of routine. She just… needs a minute.
Darcy passes out for about a day.
When she drags herself back to consciousness through drool and the pattern of pillow crease pressed into her face, she suddenly remembers her discussion with Ruby; and if she’s lying around feeling bad for herself, she has the time to do it to benefit someone else, so Ruby gets a text that is valiantly attempting to not seem frantic.
you still up for depression day?
Now, if your convictions were a passing phase (Kitchens + OTA)
Honestly, Darcy kind of worries she’s dreaming when she spots them for the first time. Just like December: the bright gleam of industrial steel, the smell of a kitchen freshly cleaned, a good array of knives. Not amazingly well-stocked, she’ll have to hope the Easter-Erda delivers her some of ingredients or equipment she notices are lacking (seriously, what sort of kitchen doesn’t have a rice cooker or orange oil), but literally anything is better than nothing, and it irritates her to no end that she’s going to have to thank the Captain for it.
So find her;
A) Making a batch of bread-rolls to test out the oven with: in the process of kneading, proofing, or waiting for them to finish baking.
B) Throwing together lunch for herself: cutting up vegetables, kneading pasta dough, reading a book of Christina Rosetti’s poetry while waiting for pasta to finish cooking, whisking a sauce together, and eating by herself on the floor in the corner.
C) Making a bigger meal at dinner to share: peeling potatoes, cooking off onions and garlic, browning meat, doing stretches on the floor while waiting for the food to finish cooking in the oven.
D) Or most commonly between meals: cleaning. Sharpening and washing the knives, wiping down the benchtops, doing the dishes, mopping the floors while levitating a few inches above it. It’s the first taste of real sanity she’s been able to find in… definitely since the labyrinth, probably since she arrived. Do not step on her clean floors or risk getting the mop shoved somewhere delicate.
May your ashes feed the river in the morning rays (Gym + OTA)
She imagines that a caged bird being freed feels the same way as she does setting up the treadmill. Darcy is a well-tuned machine that needs to be in motion, which is sufficient motivation to ignore the risk of getting cornered by someone in the gym again (thanks for that anxiety, Clarke,) and actually go to train during the day. Like some sort of animal.
Between the treadmill, deadlifts, one-armed push-ups, rowing machine, and the intensity with which she’s hitting the punching bag, an observer might come to the conclusion that she’s either trying to push past her limits, or run herself ragged. Either way, stay out of her way and off the machine she’s about to use or risk getting scowled at.
Get up, coward. (wildcard)
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kitchen.
Still, it seems so good. And the sounds - someone's cooking? Really and truly cooking here? That hasn't happened in months. So it is that she'll wander in, wide eyed and completely unaware if she's intruding, but cautious and hesitant since it's brand new to her.
"What am I smelling...?"
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The sound of sizzling and the press of a wooden spoon into the pot continues.
"How are you holding up?"
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kitchen
Cassandra peers into the new kitchen and blinks, on seeing Darcy there. Reading a book, which ... probably surprises her more than it should.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt."
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"'S a public space," she starts, then a small exhale, still not looking up, "and you don't have to walk on eggshells just because I'm in it."
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let our bodies lay
He closes the door behind him and regards her attempt to choke her own emotions back, then approaches her slowly. He doesn't really know what to say -- another byproduct of having talked too much already -- but he feels pressed to say something.
"Asking if you were OK seems stupid in hindsight."
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Darcy's probably also spoken too much, but not of her frustrations, her anger has boiled over anew- somehow, lending evidence to the idea that her stores of it are endless- into hands shaking with adrenaline. She crosses the room to be within arm's reach, Darcy takes his hand, placing it like you'd pet a dog at the top-back of her head. She squeezes her eyes shut and headbutts her forehead against his chest, a sound like tar being sucked through a straw as she tries to breathe deep enough to calm herself down.
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Kitchen, A
Internally Erin is making a bet that Darcy would be angrier getting asked how she is than by the technical rudeness of not asking.
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"Erin," which is about as much greeting as she cares to offer.
"They're... ten minutes off being done, if I've remembered how long they have to bake for correctly. Either that or they'll be done in five and burnt to shit in ten. You can take some when they're done- just use the buffet butter, I want to conserve the stuff that's in the fridge here."
No Darcy Ylva Is The T-Rex
Cw flippant suicide mention
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depression day
Once the immediate rush of their freedom from the Labyrinth and the mess at the bridge is over, Ruby's head feels a little bit like it's full of the stuffing from a plush toy. It isn't the same feeling as after Halloween, but it isn't pleasant, and she loses most of the first twenty-four hours after crisis mode ends to the sensation of vaguely floating through life. She eats, she thinks. She probably even sleeps.
That doesn't mean she really remembers the details. Reality has been just a little... fuzzy, since the illusion took her. It'll pass.
She snaps back most of the way when her phone goes off, anyway.
yeah, totally, I'm guessing we could both kinda use it even more than we already did before
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my room?
i dont have a roommate rn so
ill see if theres snacks and stuff too
and lemme know when youre coming over?
it doesnt have to be right now or anything
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kitchen - D(on't walk on the clean floor)
Or maybe Rita's just wandering in with incredibly coincidental timing. Things have changed around the ship, and she'd at least like to know what's still here and what's not...or what's new, apparently, as she strolls curiously into the kitchen, completely oblivious to the freshly-mopped floor. It's a big enough kitchen, even, that she doesn't particularly take notice of Darcy's presence, either, too focused on examining some of the industrial cooking equipment as only someone who's never seen most of this stuff in her life can do...
You know what else she's oblivious to? The fact that she's dropping crumbs on that clean floor as she nibbles on a carrot muffin.
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Insulting her, her friends, her loved ones, are all one thing. But this? This is the limit. This is past the pale. The absolute fucking upper boundary of bullshit she's willing to stomach today. If God had sent Satan to tempt her into violence he could not have worn a better guise than this.
"OUT. NOW."
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I rolled high for her to dodge it but it's funnier if she gets hit
love it lmao! also rita rolled 16/20, chaos continues
11/20! Womp womp poor Darcy
8/20, she gets some of the wrecking she deserves
Nat 20, sorry Rita
7, lmao rip (also I'm heading to sleep but what a good disaster thread!!)
[Not Here (For Long)]
13, and sleep well this is super fun!!!
11, and same!!
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Kitchen 🅱
"Are you using that?"
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"Because if it's not in my hands and not full of food, I'm not using it."
... Where is that hotdog smell coming from?
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Live action Wilson spotted!!
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gym, of course
Because here's Clarke, turning the corner and strolling through the doors of the gym with an almost unnatural ease about her. For once it's not like she's walking with the idea of a destination in mind, just a lazy sort of meander punctuated by the softly obnoxious slap of her shoes on flooring, and a fluffy white towel tucked under her arm. She's also dressed extremely down, not a hint of leather around; black bike shorts, aforementioned flip flops, hair unbrushed. Half drowning in an oversized men's shirt that needed to be rolled up so she could still use her hands. Topped off with a bold set of sunglasses, instead of the usual gun belt around her waist. It's fine and this is completely normal.
It doesn't take very long to spot Darcy, the other girl is a quiet storm of action and exertion that compels spectators. And it's not like Clarke has anything better to do than watch her yank at the grip of that rowing machine for a solid thirty seconds. Two factions are at war in her head. One immediately knows she's unwelcome; that Darcy's probably still as emotionally raw as she'd been in the lobby full of heads, and there's nothing she could say to help, so she ought to just go.
The other doesn't want to think too hard past its own idle curiosity, let alone dwell about the time they'd spent sequestered like lambs for the slaughter. And that one's louder right now. Or at least, it's the one her feet listen to. Drawing closer around the time Darcy finishes her rep, extending her hand and offering up a —
"Towel?"
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"Sure."
She takes the towel- not snatching- and dabs at her face.
"Thanks."
Which may very well be the most polite conversation they've had in literal months. Probably closer to half a year.
"You look like shit."
And there that goes.
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gym
Usually, he's here alone. This time, Darcy's here, and he's already walked far enough into the gym that she's almost definitely seen him. He's not sure how angry she is with him (hell, he's not sure how angry he is with her - it's all kind of blending together with regret and sadness into some new, stupid emotion he hates) but his teenage pride demands that he face her head on instead of running away.
"You using those weights?" he says, motioning to some weights that clearly no one is using. It's just an ice breaker to gauge the mood and also signal that he's not going to come out swinging.
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"No, ehn, go ahead."
If he's not coming out swinging, then she isn't either. Darcy would like to still consider him a friend, all things considered. Even through this.
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Kitchen
A chair creaks next to her.
“If I may, I would like to assist. I am interested in observing how you cook. You have already seen some of my own methods,” Dedue says.
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"Oh good, saves me trying to find you. I was going to ask if you wanted dinner. By the power vested in me, I name you my sous chef- first things first, I need a pot. Medium sized, half full of water, and it needs a decent pinch of salt in it. Do you have anything like gnocchi back home? Potato pasta?"
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cw mentions of domestic violence, death
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The hell is a gyme
He does trawl by occasionally, because it's something to do, which is why he sees Darcy setting up a barbell with no fucking help in sight - so he just sighs and heads over to her.
"Hey. Spotting you." It's not a question.
using le gymmenasueumme
"How's your hand?"
Re: using le gymmenasueumme
Cw flippant suicide mention
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Gym
"Will you be much longer?" He asks her, tone politely indifferent. "If so, I may opt to come back later."
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She stops the bag from swinging with her hand and then steps away, unwrapping her hands, hunched over her bag.
"I can come back later."
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Kitchen A
He's so enamored with the kitchen, he fails to see there's someone else already here for an embarrassingly long few seconds.
"Oh, sorry Darcy, I was so excited I completely missed you were in here. What are you making?"
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She dusts the flour from her hands, rolling her shoulders back.
"Just making some bread rolls to test out the oven. You want to help me divide the dough?"
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wildcard
He skulks through the buffet for a cheese-and-jam sandwich, tucks himself into a corner like a stray dog to eat it, and then, reluctantly, pulls out his phone to message Darcy.
Im sorry but
I dont want to impose on fio and avaa
Could i trouble you for a place to sleep
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please
i mean
it would be nice to have you here
doors unlocked
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kitchen, B (couple of days after rita gets rekt)
Darcy is chopping up vegetables when he enters the kitchen. Natsuno takes a moment to make sure - yup, no residual urge to slam her face into a counter. His tone is neutral, almost conversational.
"I heard you and Rita had a fight."
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"She came in here and ruined a couple of solid hours of cleaning, yes it was a big reaction to something minor, no I'm not sorry, no I won't apologise to her, she got off easy, I gave her plenty of chances to walk away before she got her face smacked in, she has repeatedly insulted me and people I care about with no apology ever, including about things I can't change- like, you know, me being dead- and I don't care however the hell she's put it to you to make her seem like she's in the right. She has pushed me to my Goddamn limit for the last time and she's lucky that I haven't punched her before I did, or that I didn't do worse. No I'm not getting anyone else involved, I just want her to leave me alone and stop thinking she can get away with talking shit to whoever she wants. Does that cover everything?"
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kitchens, a
The smell of fresh bread summons him over, though. He pokes his head in to find Darcy midway through a second batch of dough, and, well, bread seems harder for him to fuck up. He'd helped out in Garreg Mach's kitchens from time to time, when he couldn't trade the chore with someone better suited to it.
"You're baking? Can I help?"
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Darcy dusts her hands off and makes her way to the sink to clean off, "I think I got too over-excited with the fact I can make bread now- we've still got plenty of flour left, but I need to find some people to actually eat these bread rolls. I'm thinking of throwing them at people in the buffet."
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Wrap up here or in the next few replies?
sounds good!
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