[OPEN] I Want it to Be, Like, Messy

[serialskiller]

Who: Sec and You
When: October
Where: All Over
Summary: Trying to Get By
Warnings: None Yet

1. I feel like no one wants me [The Pillow Pit]
Perhaps you were coming to relax a little. Perhaps you're just discovering the new door in Calgona for the first time. Perhaps the low rumbling sound coming from behind the door intrigued you.

And perhaps the handwritten sign taped to the door that said AT YOUR OWN RISK was too great a temptation to ignore.

Either way, pushing into the room with the pillow pit, what one finds is Security, sprawled out in the pit, covered by its weighted blanket, either snoring or purring. Or perhaps a mix of both! Engage, as the sign said, at your own risk.


2. And I hate the way I'm perceived [All Over]
The drones are somewhat less present right now. Or perhaps, less obvious. The Panopticon is tired, and the amount of data it's taking in on a daily basis is a lot to process. So, it's only flying a couple extra eyes right now, and even those are staying mostly out of the way. Mostly.

If you're a new passenger or a friend, there's a chance one might still drift by, orbit your head like a personal moon. Buzz near an ear, almost playfully. Since it's not focusing on piloting the whole fleet, it can puppet an individual drone to behave like a cartoon insect, or a curious puppy that happens to be about a centimeter tall and flying.


3. I only have two real friends [Bellona Theater]
Security received the trumpet months ago, but it hasn't really learned how to play it besides LOUD. But now, it's going to a part of the ship that's usually unoccupied to get some actual practice in, testing what the different finger buttons do when pressed. If you're in the area, you might here some tentative little doot-doot.

Are you a musician who can help? Are you someone with ears who wants to complain?


4. And lately, I'm a nervous wreck [Wildcard]
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[serialskiller]

"Part of it is from the time spent in memory cracks." Not all of it, though, of course.

[decrypter]

"I should have been more selfish. Stayed home, taken some more years with you instead of leading to both our deaths."

It's curious, how tone can make that into a loving statement instead of bleak and harsh.

"But I think I want to be selfish for a little bit. Coming up on this date." She pauses, clearly trying to figure out how to say this, but knowing it's important.

"I...want to stay home. Until the next month passes. I want to stay safe, until then. Maybe I'm just being superstitious, but..."

After all her resolve and proclamation about duty. About the necessity. But she's trying to be brave enough to tell her companion that she's scared, that winter so to speak asks people to wait.

[serialskiller]

"Yeah? Okay, we're staying." It's simple as that. "Though knowing you, you're going to be restless and weird about it. You should ask that guy in the suits about helping him with the breakfast thing he does. He'd appreciate the help, and it'd give your hands something to do."

[decrypter]

We're staying. She doesn't move, but it can probably sense the subtle changes that mean a wave of relief ran through her.

"You're not...disappointed or anything? You don't think less of me?"

[serialskiller]

"Hela." Its voice is low, as gentle as it ever gets. "We could get deep about deserving and duty and necessity and all that. But it's this simple: you want to be selfish, and I'm going to indulge in your selfishness, too."

[decrypter]

And like that, like an energy weapon piercing through a wall, so do its words cut through the tangle around her emotions. She will always be nervous about the judgement of others, but having its support in this decision means everything. Security's opinion weighs more than most of this ship combined, after all.

"Thank you."

She shifts, so she can tuck herself that fraction closer.

"It's not as though I've been holding onto that for a while...but being here with you, I just realized that I want that. That I could have it, if I did the scary thing and asked."

How difficult it sometimes is to ask at all.