My fuck rations are depleted [October catch-all]

[neverleave]

Who: Natsuno and you
What: Monthly catch-all
When: October
Where: All around
Warnings: Discussion of murder, violence and suicide, will add as needed

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[neverleave]

[Natsuno shakes his head at the apology. He's hardly in a position to tell anyone how to grieve "properly" right now, and Mizuki isn't the one who should be sorry. He might have even said as much, but his friend keep talking and -

Ebalon died?

In another situation, Natsuno would think good riddance and I hope he stays dead. Now though, he doesn't feel much of anything about it. Only the rational part of his brain is still working, wondering how it happened.]

So it happened all at once. [His rational brain says he should mind his tongue, because Mizuki still loves the Moon Freak for some reason.] Is he back yet?

[mooninthewater]

[ Mizuki shakes his head, giving another sniff before he speaks again. His fingers idly tug at the ribbon on his hat. ]

Happened after. A day after. And we… [ … He can’t really say we here. He can’t speak for everyone. And, besides, he’s very aware that there’s a very small pool of people that’d actually care if something happened to Ebalon. ] I thought I lost you both for good. A-and…

…

I have a lot of fun hanging out with you. Even if I’m a bit annoying sometimes, it’s real fun. And you really listen to me a-and I feel like I can just talk to you about stuff and have it be okay and… and you’re just really important to me.

I don’t want to lose you.

[neverleave]

[A day after. So Ebalon should be back tomorrow. Natsuno does feel bad for Mizuki who suffered an unfortunate coincidence, but it's distant and short lived because, well, fuck Ebalon.

Moving on.]

You're important to me too. [Clinginess, weird thoughts and all.] I can't control whatever makes people disappear, but... I'll mind what I can control. No more stupid stunts.

[mooninthewater]

[ He should probably ask why he did it, what happened, you know… the whole shebang. He doesn't, though. If that means he's going to continue to think that Jinx is still mostly at fault, then that's another hurdle he has to cross, but for right now, he doesn't really care. He's just happy Natsuno didn't actually disappear forever. ]

I… even if you did disappear… [ He frowns, looking at… basically anything that isn't Natsuno. ] I'm not one to be much phased of such a bloody scene like that, but to know it's what's left behind of my friend, and to, at the time, believe he wasn't even coming back…

…

That was way worse than if you had just disappeared.

[neverleave]

[Palamedes already gave him the grisly details, which were further confirmed by Jade. They spared nothing, positively vindictive in how they wanted to make sure Natsuno knew exactly what he made them go through, how much he hurt them.

Mizuki's words don't have the same venom, but it's still awful.]

...I know. I never wanted that. [No one was supposed to know.] I'm sorry you had to see it.