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come_sailaway2022-07-02 11:59 am
opheliac) wrote in come_sailaway2022-07-02 11:59 am
โ (CATCH ALL) baby, go ahead, i'll be your hatred and your pain. this is killing us allใ
Who: jinx & YOU
When: all throughout july
Where: all throughout the boat
What: giving this catch all way a try. things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private. all jinx's top-levels, her phone texting, and her one-on-one will permanently go here for the month.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log.
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coding credit tothisismanx
When: all throughout july
Where: all throughout the boat
What: giving this catch all way a try. things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private. all jinx's top-levels, her phone texting, and her one-on-one will permanently go here for the month.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log.
โi'm a beautiful disaster;a reckoningโ
This is where the card content goes!
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WEEK 1 (07/03 - 07/09)
โ NATSUNO โ 07.04 โ TEXT/PRIVATE.
โ VENTI โ 07.06 โ TEXT/ACTION.
โ EKKO โ 07.06 โ TEXT/ACTION.
โ JINX โ 07.09 โ TOP-LEVEL
WEEK 2 (07/10 - 07/16)
โ EKKO โ 07.11 โ ACTION.
โ MAXMILEN + VENTI โ 07.13 โ TEXT/ACTION (CW: DRUG/DRUG USE)
WEEK 3 (07/17 - 07/23)
โ JINX โ 07.20 โ TOP-LEVEL
WEEK 4 (07/24 - 07/30)
โ EKKO โ 07.29โ ACTION
(07/31)
โ JINX โ 07.31 โ TOP-LEVEL
coding credit to
thisismanx
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But if we at least know this about ourselves, maybe that's a start. [ recognizing a problem could be a first step in tackling it, right? and it's odd but he's always felt a little more confident in himself around her, if he could be there to help her. ]
What you've been doing... is it dangerous, would it hurt you and others?
cw: druggie things
but who else can she turn to for it? everyone expects her to just go through this withdrawal and she'll just be all squared away. but they don't have the slightest idea just how hard her days have been. it feels as if she is losing life in her and hadn't it crossed anyone's mind that maybe....just maybe she needs it in order to live now? she is chemically altered -- she's not just some ordinary human. that maybe without it in her from time to time as a boost, she'll just be...sickly?)
(people are so focus on the negative aspects of shimmer and not the positives. typical. when she looks over to venti again, she can only gives him a smile; small and a little apologetic. jinx leans forward to him -- raising a little out of her seat to plant a very gentle kiss on the forehead. 'don't worry about me. it's okay. i'll be fine.' if only he can read her thoughts. for a second, she pulls back and settles back in her seat with her hands still soothing his cheeks.)
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if care could be like a river, it's not that he could ever dam it or want to. no matter how they might hurt each other or how she feels about him, his feelings might remain the same, this fondness that he recognizes and warms to his chest when she kisses his forehead; his face reddens just so, his smile vulnerably pleased, wanting with a yearning to return it but remembering still what she'd told him about not touching her unless she'd allow. he'd always been so easy to be affectionate, he'd always been so free to be fond of people. ]
... So, are we friends again?
[ well, unless something else might happen and strain that bond again. it might as well happen sooner or later, but he doesn't suppose he'd ever mind trying to mend it or wait for her to tolerate him again. ]
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it got her comfortable again with trusting and although she still feels mizuki isn't the one for him, she... allowed herself to accept it. because all jinx ever wanted was for her light to have happiness. to shine, to be in all smiles, laugh, and fly as high in the open skies until his wings grow tired. and besides even if she push, he will probably push back and run to him faster. so it's best to just let things be and only hope he is true by his words that she is still just as important. that he won't just dump her to the side now that he has a special someone.)
(and plus, jinx kinda also has a someone now, too. she hadn't noticed until now that she seems to be falling for ekko a little more each day. in which...she is still on the fence on what to do with this new discovery. to fall in or make a break for it. although, she can't help but to be just a little curious what it would be like to fall in. and also during this little break period of hers(with the help of the doll), jinx was able to distinguish her feelings between the two of them, too.)
(she is falling for ekko as one would fall for a lover and she loves venti but not at all as a lover. in the beginning, it did spark off a little in that direction but then it geared more and more into a love of mixture in platonic and guidance. he is that light then she gazes up to when things fall scary for her or when she feels all hope is lost. the yearn to help it shine bright whenever it quivers or fall dim. she wants to help him like he helped her so many times and heed his words and wisdom he may shower her with. jinx wants to... believe in him again. just like how they were in the beginning.
so she feels she is ready to walk on that path again; to look up at her ball of light dancing along and to take her where she needs to be.)
Yeah, we're friends again.
(and maybe... juuuust maybe -- if this turns out okay, maybe all hope is not lost for her and vi to repair again.)