come_sailaway | ★ (CATCH ALL) baby, go ahead, i'll be your hatred and your pain. this is killing us all。

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★ (CATCH ALL) baby, go ahead, i'll be your hatred and your pain. this is killing us all。

Who: jinx & YOU
When: all throughout july
Where: all throughout the boat
What: giving this catch all way a try. things that will happen with her during this month. some will be open & some will be private. all jinx's top-levels, her phone texting, and her one-on-one will permanently go here for the month.
Warnings: jinx suffers from mental illness. such as the following - schizophrenia, hallucinations, PTSD, & separation anxiety. these may or may not happen in this log.

❝i'm a beautiful disaster;a reckoning❞

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WEEK 1 (07/03 - 07/09)
█ NATSUNO ➜ 07.04 ➜ TEXT/PRIVATE.
█ VENTI ➜ 07.06 ➜ TEXT/ACTION.
█ EKKO ➜ 07.06 ➜ TEXT/ACTION.
█ JINX ➜ 07.09 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

WEEK 2 (07/10 - 07/16)
█ EKKO ➜ 07.11 ➜ ACTION.
█ MAXMILEN + VENTI ➜ 07.13 ➜ TEXT/ACTION (CW: DRUG/DRUG USE)

WEEK 3 (07/17 - 07/23)
█ JINX ➜ 07.20 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

WEEK 4 (07/24 - 07/30)
█ EKKO ➜ 07.29➜ ACTION

(07/31)
█ JINX ➜ 07.31 ➜ TOP-LEVEL

coding credit to

thisismanx

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

(right okay. she's doing this. they are going to do this, she has to. there's no way she can go on with this shit. every day is just a damn struggle and it's really tearing her down. jinx tries to convince herself that if the chance someone discovers she's done this, they'll...understand, right?

she manages to slip away to be alone and even with her strength leaving her, she made it to the theatre so far unnoticed. wearing a backpack, jinx makes haste to the stage and kicks down it's boarding. with a hole expose, there lies a box. it had been quite awhile since she check to see if everything is still in tact. and luckily for her when she opens the lid, the vials of shimmer glows vibrantly in its cushion. jinx sighs in relief as she takes a viral -- carefully slipping the precious cargo in the bag before shutting the lid.)

(normally jinx can't stand when things that go broken becomes restored but for once, she is thankful that when she turns away, that hole repairs back. heading out of the theatre, jinx clumsily pulls out her phone and begins to text:)

hey. that thing we talked about? i need u to do it now. please tell me ure free.

Edited 2022-07-13 06:58 (UTC)

[He glances at his phone, leaning against one of the machines in the casino as he contemplates it. He certainly hadn't expected this to happen so soon. He'd been preoccupied with how strange everyone was being that he hadn't put in adequate time to figure out how best to manipulate this agreement in his favor.

Well no matter now. He'd have to adapt as he went.]

I will pencil you into my extremally busy schedule. Where shall I meet you?

the bridge. no one goes there. i already have everything except a pillow? smth to bite on? think u can bring smth like that?

(there's a pause she sends out that first message. it feels as if it's almost yesterday when singed was looming over head; his eyes flare with such fascination of having a moment to inject the serum into her. it's something she truly wishes not to go through again -- her heart is already racing on the sheer fact she has to go through this process. but... maybe it won't be so bad the second time?)

maybe rope too.

Edited 2022-07-13 20:11 (UTC)

[Oh he didn't know he'd need supplies for this. Fortunately for her he just recently interrogated one of his friends and even has a leather duffel bag for just such an occasion. He's not doing anything unless he can look like a fancy hitman while doing it.]

That can be arranged. I'll meet you there. And please, do try to avoid anyone seeing you.

[He doesn't want to be the last one seen with Jinx if this kills her. Not to mention he's not going to explain why she's tied to a chair or whatever.

Max silently approaches the bridge, holding onto that duffel bag, he has a small pillow in it, along with several ties from Tommy Bahama strung together as rope. It should suffice unless this process is far different than he's imagining. He hadn't realized that it would be painful enough for her to need something to bite, so already he's a little in over his head. But that's fine, he can manage this.]

(she manages to get there momentarily without any wandering eyes nor people questioning. when he sees her, jinx looks down right like garbage. she's paler than usual, in sweat, beaten down, worn and exhausted. she's been using the wall to help push her along and she's so thankful that she made it here without fainting or vomiting.

peeling off the backpack, she leans against the said wall and lets it fall to her feet.)

It's... in there. Just gotta put the Shimmer in the syringe. We gotta be careful 'cuz Shimmer can also be used as in explosive...

[For as much as he claims to not know anything about humans, nor care, even he can see that she looks rough.]

Have you been fighting or are you hungover?

[He sets down his own bag to look her over.]

Out here in the open? We're risking the Captain appearing and interfering. And I'm not feeling up to a battle of wits with a magical being today.

Ha, funny.

(he isn't making a joke, maybe?? but she's trying to put some light into this situation. jinx tilts her head back against the wall while letting out a shallow breath. there's a faint look at she gives him before tossing her arms up in the air lightly.)

Well, it's the only place no one bothers to stop by since he won't answer the door. And, I dunno, maybe he won't come 'cuz I'm here. Not one of his favorites.

Oh don't say that, I'm sure you've caused more than your fair share of chaos and induced all sorts of emotions for him to feed off of.

[Folding his arms he watches her curiously.]

Now before we actually begin anything here, a few questions. Are you going to scream, attack me, or otherwise do something that would draw attention? And what precisely do I need to do? Just inject you?

Uuh, yeah? (she weakly gesture flick of her wrist to the pillow.) — Why do you think the pillow's for? This is gonna hurt like hell. I'm gonna need somethin' to bite on. The rope? To restrain me a lil'.

(exhaling out another shallow breath.)

I guess just find a vein and stick it in? Sorry, I was kinda dyin' and strapped down the first go round. So didn't reeeallly get a good look on how the Doc was doing it.

I see. Well so you know, I'm probably far too heavy for you to throw off so I'd prefer you didn't. I happen to like this suit and I only have the two, so try not to damage it.

[He doesn't sound sympathetic to her plight of this being intensely painful at all. She asked for it, she can deal with the consequences.]

Now what's this about it being an explosive?

[He reaches for her pack, waiting for confirmation so he doesn't blow them both up.]

It can use as that, yeah. Small doses can heal you and it can also be used as fuel which what we're doin'.

(she truly hates giving him all of this information about shimmer but ha ha, water. getting tired of standing, jinx slowly starts to sink into the ground and sits there -- her back against the wall.)

[He pulls out a vial, holding up the shiny, swirling substance to the light.]

Curious.

[It's so.... pink. Well that's neither here, nor there. Time to get to this.]

Very well, let's get this over with before the Captain shows up and turns us both into ghosts for disturbing him. Sit against the wall there, [Because he's such a considerate guy he brought her a pillow to scream into. Definitely not just because he doesn't want anyone watching them.] take this, and pick the arm you like the least as I assume this will hurt. It's more viscous than normal serums I've seen.

(as she is told, she takes the seat against the wall then hesitantly grabbing onto the pillow. her energy is a lot different than before; almost a one eighty as she peers up to him -- a little anxious.)

T-Think maybe you should tie me down somehow? Or at least so I won't punch you? And uh, I guess my left one.

I'm going to, because if you punch me we'll be taking you all the way down to the infirmary because you'll break all the bones in your hand.

Unless this will also heal you. [He hadn't considered that.] Either way I don't enjoy being punched.

[It may break her hand, but it will still hurt Max. And he's not a fan. He kneels down next to her, sliding his bag close and pulling out his rope of ties, grabbing her right wrist and tying a slipknot to wrap around her wrist and pull behind her, then one coil around her waist to tie it snuggly in place. Her left arm remains free since he'll need that to inject her, and she'll need at least one hand to clutch at the pillow. He gives a tug on that to make sure she isn't going to break free and try and claw his face off, and then he's filling the syringe up and making sure there's no air bubbles.]

I don't know if it actually helps, but generally doctors say to take a deep breath before doing this, so.. do that quickly.

[Because shits about to go down. Max doesn't need to tie a tourniquet around her arm, he can see her veins and arteries under her skin as heat signatures, hotter than the rest of her. His own metal hands are somewhat warm, the alloy heating as he touches her and cooling off just as fast. With a quick motion he grabs her free arm, stretching it and jabbing the needle right into a vein and depressing the plunger steadily. His eyes widen in fascination as he can actually see the shimmer entering her bloodstream, tightening his grip in case she tries to thrash free.]

(as things begin to go underway, the more jinx starts to second guess this. maybe there's a better way of doing this. maybe she should had spoke with ekko the fact she had shimmer on board and who knows? maybe she can really convince him to not get rid of the serum and find another method to get this in her system.

as her anxiety flares, she turns her gaze to max but in mid-waiting to protest this, jinx goes stone cold silent as singed has a quick hold of her arm. pink eyes widen in sheer fear, she is already thrashing to try to get away.)

NO! — Nonononono...!

(and then she feels it -- rapid fire swim through her popping veins -- they pulse with its purple glow and her eyes shock violently to match its color. jinx buries her head down into the pillow to scream in pure agony; kicking wildly. with her doing so, the cushion flies off her lap so she just resorts to pulling her legs close and bites sharply into one of her knees.

'STOP! Please!!! Make it stop, make it stop, make it stop! God, please! No more, no more, no more, no more! Please kill me, this hurts!'

her teeth is so deeply sink into her knee, jinx breaks her own skin as the taste of copper hits her tongue. her tears are flowing so rapidly down her cheeks but strangely as she feels this horrifying pain, she also feels strength returning. the sensation spikes right to her temples -- a chill tickles up and down her spine. her head is spinning with so many voices overlapping; haunting giggles along with the dead reminder her of her failures.)

(and then soon after once all the serum is empty from its needle, jinx lets go of herself with a sharp tilt back of her head -- swallowing a large about of air to fill up her lungs. the purple of her eyes switches into pink and her veins no longer throb as they settle back to normal. and after a few seconds, she practically slumps. her muscles no longer tensing with her head hang low -- panting deeply. despite exhausted, she feels so... light; invincible? either way, she needs... a moment before doing anything.)

Edited 2022-07-20 01:27 (UTC)

[Jinx starts thrashing and screaming and Max barely reacts. The diodes of his eyes briefly settle on hers as they change color, but then he's looking back at her arm, the last thing he wants is to rip the needle out and get either blood or shimmer on his clothing. He's not trying to hurt her, but that seems to be an inescapable side effect of this drug, so he's going to ignore all her screaming and flailing until he can pull the needle free.

He sits back on his heels, capping the needle and dropping it back into her bag. Just watching her as she goes through the phases of a high in a matter of seconds and even for someone mechanical that doesn't look pleasant.

It's not until she slumps that he speaks again.]

Feel better now?

[He's not going to untie her until she says something, in case she's biding her time to get him closer to attack him. Paranoid to his very core.]

(jinx continues to lie so still -- the only movement from her is her chest slowly raising and lowering as she tries to steady her breathing. whether max is able to see with her head low or not, there's a very tiny smile that's on her face. the pain is over just like she pleaded. death didn't come like she asked but the pain did cease. jinx wonders then, did barbatos came in her hour of need somehow?

she wasn't able to breathe his name during the battle royale back then but maybe he actually came through this go round. after all, he does tend to become the wind so maybe he is fluttering in the air -- who truly knows. right now, it's a bit too hard to think in complete thoughts but one does flow by of his name and then "thank you" to follow behind.

bathing in its rush, jinx lifts up her head and exhales out a deep sigh. in a way, she gets why the junkies back home do what they do. the thirst of shimmer's love truly can be intoxicating and alluring. having the feeling of any fear that lingers within completely vaporized and now the strength to do everything and anything all at once -- to reach so high in any skies -- nothing to tie you down.)

'M good.

(she mutters this while tilting her head slowly from side to side to pull any cracks in her neck. her eyes move down to her knee -- watching the purple blood ooze steadily. the bite that stung seconds before no long there. hm. how dramatic she was being...)

Good.

[He reaches over to untie her, coiling his makeshift rope up and putting it back into his bag.]

And now you're stronger and off to blow the ship into pieces or whatever it is you do for fun? But more importantly, those you mentioned who don't want you doing this are definitely going to notice. What are you planning to tell them?

[He wants to get their story straight so he's not implicated in anything.]

(once untied, jinx wiggles that arm a bit to get some feeling back into it and work out any cramps she got during that. another deep breath blows out through her nostrils with her slender fingers combing through her bangs.)

That it was just a terrible cold and I got over it. (a shrug but then a slow smirk to follow.)

Or when in doubt, blame the Cap. Say that he helped me out.

[ It is actually a shame that Max doesn't have a mouth because he'd be sporting a seriously Cheshire Cat like grin right now.]

Blaming the Captain sounds like the best strategy. And he'd either not care or use that to his advantage if he found out.

Yes. That's very clever.

Thanks! 'Sides, he thrives in this kinda thing. Feeding on fear, anger, sadness, pain. And this? — (she raises up her arm.) — was definitely painful. Eh heh heh...

(and she can only hope she doesn't need to go through that progress again anytime soon. here's hoping the dose can hold out maybe a few more months.)

Edited 2022-07-21 22:15 (UTC)

Which means he definitely knows something happened if he can sense that.

[That's his cue to leave the scene of the crime. He gathers his bag and stands up.]

It's been a pleasure doing business with you. I hope we don't need to do this frequently.

Fingers crossed.

(she forms a two finger salute as she resumes to sit here. jinx will definitely be on the move fairly soon too but she figures she might need just a few more minutes to be on the safe side.)

See ya out there, Steel.

[ the wind hears the call of his name, even unsaid in the desperate prayer in the throes of pain; he locates her swiftly just as max leaves and he could see the silhouette of jinx alone now at the bridge. does shimmer have a scent--if so he could feel it near electric in the air, otherwise the brightness of her eyes sudden in the dark is evident enough. he could recall the time he'd first seen her after she'd 'returned' and she claimed herself changed, newly and fractionally inhuman.

the wind curls around her warm, and then in a flutter of feathers venti is there besides her, his own eyes near a-glow with fierce concern. ]

Jinx--

So this was what you were planning to do. [ his touch goes to her arm, light and ghosting just to her shoulder. he'd asked a while ago if this would be addictive or if there would be withdrawal... it seemed that question answered. ]

Are you all right?

(honestly, she was so busy with her conversation with max just moments ago, she had forgotten during the injection she had called out to him in a panic. so when he appears before, she is surprised -- eyebrow raising on how in the world did he exactly knew where she was. her glowing pinks meeting his greens but then quickly evades the gaze. jinx isn't ashamed, hell no, but this was something she was trying to keep it under wraps somehow.)

(she keeps still and mute with the turn of her head. what is there to say really? all the evidence lies right there before him; there's no need for words or explanation. so if he wishes to tend to her now bruised arm, he can -- she won't stop him.)

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